tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2020563303135450306.post2055030733220673908..comments2008-03-07T23:43:37.877-05:00Ashley Weishttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03188490976194311758ashleyweis23@gmail.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2020563303135450306.post-41460140401039477162008-03-07T23:43:37.877-05:002008-03-07T23:43:37.877-05:00I know I have shared my testimony time and time again. For those with ears with hear, I will share with all.<BR/><BR/>I am incredibly vocal about the struggles I have with lust and pornography because it was ONLY because of the God that Delivers and the God that Protects that I was freed from that bondage.<BR/><BR/>I was so wrapped up in pornography that I actually worked in the industry.<BR/><BR/>It wasn't until I kneel before Him and I told Him that I chose on this day to serve Him and Him alone.<BR/><BR/>Terrible husband, horrible father to my son, divorced, poor steward of time and money, denying my faith, giving into lust, exploiter of women for my gain: the absolute best that I could do, I simply laid it at the feet of Christ Jesus my Saviour.<BR/><BR/>I will serve You, my Lord and my King, if you will come in my life and fix me. I suck at living this life You have given me. I want to see if I can do slightly better at living my life for You.<BR/><BR/>It is this day I serve You. Everyday for the rest of my life, I will choose to praise, worship and serve you. Everyday, I will wake up and choose to love you.<BR/><BR/>Make me whole again. I cannot go another step without You. I refuse to go on without You.<BR/><BR/>I rather die before I go back to the way I was. Lord, take me.<BR/><BR/>With tears flowing off my face like waterfalls on my knees, I cried and screamed that prayer to Him in the middle of my living room one rainy Monday afternoon back in April.<BR/><BR/>In that moment, God reached down and broke every single chain that locked me down. Every single hurt in my life, He healed and made whole. My heart was discarded for the heart of the Father.<BR/><BR/>If He can do this type of work within a piece of trash like myself, then the same God who puts the stars in their place and who calms the raging seas is so very faithful to complete that work within you. I promise you.Joehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18094145762353808363noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2020563303135450306.post-159152793428255802008-03-06T20:27:30.270-05:002008-03-06T20:27:30.270-05:00What a beautiful article, Ashley! You are an encouragement to many, I'm sure! Thanks for all you do!Robinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08276515253263872085noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2020563303135450306.post-65140803569904195492008-03-05T19:37:17.670-05:002008-03-05T19:37:17.670-05:00Ashley, that was such a beautiful article, full of grace and forgiveness rooted in the cross. I'm sure you will encourage many people. Keep writing. You have a gift for connecting with others' hearts. :)Annahttp://hoperoadblog.comnoreply@blogger.com