Another Year Almost Over

What refreshment my break from the internet has brought me. I even got rid of Facebook for good and it feels so wonderful. I always thought Facebook would be so beneficial for marketing my book if it ever comes out ... but I realized more than anything it is a waste of time and life. Gone it went ... and my to-do list for Tekeme has finally dwindled. This has left me with more energy, more time to clean, and something I love ... more time to cook!

I feel better mentally and emotionally, although the physical part (pregnancy) still messes with me. Christmas was wonderful. Evie sang "Happy Day dear Jesus" (happy birthday) quite frequently ... and still does. I looked through some clearance Christmas cards for next year on Wednesday and cried -- literally. The idea of our God -- our beautiful, powerful God -- coming to this world as a weak, reliant infant. That touched me deeply as I sifted through Christmas cards filled with the true meaning of Christmas (Happy Holidays) -- Jesus!

More than anything I have had more time to reflect on Jesus, and because of this I see the world through Him more and more. Whenever I take time to reflect I fall in love with my husband even more.

It always bothers me when he says something like, "Your a much better Christian than me." Or something strange like that. He thinks because I have a huge amount of compassion for the poor that I'm a better Christian. What he doesn't realize is that he is the most selfless, caring, gentle, kind, beautiful person I know. He seems to think he's going to be wiping floors in heaven as I sit in a glorious chair ... but I see the opposite. It's easy to care about the poor. It's not as easy to care about everyone and to love people no matter what. He does that. He is so kind and selfless. Sure, there are some areas I am stronger in, but overall ... I sincerely admire him because He reminds me of Jesus more and more everyday.

I think it's so easy to get annoyed with people when they remind us of Jesus, especially in areas we aren't so "good" in. We see Jesus in them and therefore think we are less than ideal, or perfect, or good. We focus on our flaws, instead of admiring the beauty of Jesus in others. I never want to do that with anyone, especially my dear husband. I never want to be jealous, annoyed, or focused on myself when his spirit of love convicts me and moves me toward Jesus.

There is no greater gift I have received from Jesus other than a husband and two children who move me closer toward Jesus. Evie, even at 2 years old, speaks of Jesus with tenderness, even if she doesn't understand. Little George even says, "Jesus." It melts me to pieces. It's so wonderful to have a family in love with Jesus. I don't know what I'd do without them.

So thankful for Jesus. So thankful for Christmas day -- a day to celebrate with people around the world and worship the King of Kings. If only we could all live every day as though it were Christmas day. I know quite a few people who do though ... and my beautiful husband is one of them.

So excited to see what 2010 brings. I can't wait to learn and grow and fall in love with Him even more!

Part of Evie's "school" performance: